Spring Is Here!!!

So much is happening.  It is hard to capture everything that is happening for me and my Family.

There has been some very challenging times starting with my Dad's heart operation.  The great news is that he is getting stronger day by day.  I love my Dad.  I am disappointed that we never celebrated his 80th Birthday and know that when he is feeling better we will definitely do something special as a Family.  Another very challenging day was at the hospital with my Mum yesterday, her regular cancer check-up - it was a tough day, especially sitting in the room waiting for the verdict from the Specialist.  It was upsetting to see the brain tumor on my Mum's scans and the positive news is that my Mum is very well now and no other tumors have surfaced in my Mum's brain.  It is hard realising that my Mum has cancer.  In the past, when cancer appeared for my Mum, she has been able to have an operation and get rid of the cancer - now my Mum has to live with this tumor.  There are no answers at this stage.  And so we agree that there are no more questions right now.  My Mum says that she just wants to forget about it - and just live.  My Mum is so strong.  My wish is that I can be as great a woman, Wife and Mother as my Mum.

Despite the challenges I am very Grateful for the wonderful moments in the last couple of weeks.  I am very much about the moments - capturing the Beauty and Love in the moments of my life - capturing them in my Heart and mind's eye.  I feel myself breathing in the moments.  Since our Engagement, I feel like I have spent so much time in my car racing around to hospitals - and I have also really enjoyed some moments of Love and Life.  Once again, I acknowledge and accept and see myself holding the Paradox in Life.

I love spending time with my Family.  I loved spending some time with my Nieces and Aunty Joyce and my Mum and My Man at the Park - it was just nice to be outdoors and enjoying time playing at the playground.

It was also wonderful to enjoy some precious moments at my Niece Ashley's Birthday.  My Dad wasn't well enough to come to the Party and he was missed and yet it was still lovely to see the smiling face of my Niece Ashley and to see how much all of my Nieces are loved.

And Spring Is Here!!!  YAHOO!!!  I love Spring!!!  I love the Sunshine.  I love the feel of Spring in the air.  This morning My Man and I were up early to see the Sunrise.  It is a ritual that I have enjoyed all year - watching the Sunrise on the 1st day of every month.  It was a bit of a struggle when I heard the alarm this morning, and yet I love seeing the Sunrise at the beach.  It is one of my favourite sights.  I love seeing the beautiful colours in the sky at Sunrise and Sunset and I loved taking a walk with My Man - just being outdoors together is FANTASTIC!

I love being outdoors.  With so much happening in my life, I love being in Nature which gives me a Sense of Peace, Simplicity, Beauty.  I love hearing the Birds singing.  I love the Wattle Trees.  I love Flowers.  

I love being in the NOW when I am in Nature, just capturing the moment.  I love being in the NOW - Fullstop, Exclamation Mark!!!  This is how I want to live my life, just in the NOW, not thinking about the Past or worrying about the Future - just being in the NOW.

We can never be sure what happens in our life.  Just today at work I was listening to the stories of Colleagues and their own struggles and pain.  One lady told me that her Dad underwent an operation, where the doctor said they could not complete the surgery as his heart could not take the operation - and so now he is in intensive care waiting to see if they can try again.  Another Friend told me that her Brother had a car accident on the weekend and he is in intensive care, he has had two operations and they are also not sure of the extent of any brain damage.  As I listened, I felt tears welling up in my eyes.  We all have problems and pain and suffering.

I am learning to be Grounded and Centred and Present to what is - and I feel Stronger in my Self.  My Teacher said that I am in a place of Strong Presence.  Once in Meditation an image came to me where I am enmeshed with a Tree, Strong and Grounded, firmly in the Earth and I am also reaching for the Stars, reaching for Spirit, open to receiving from God, the Universe, Angels, Love and Light.  In this place I am also in My Yellow Heart, open and loving and Present.  I cannot find the exact image that captures this for me, it is probably a combination of some of these type of images.

And as I am Grounded and Open to Spirit I can hold the Paradox of Light and Dark - I feel Strong.  In this Place I am living in My Yellow Heart.  This for me gets me out of my Head.  My Yellow Heart for me is Love, Light, Peace, Truth.

In My Yellow Heart I am in touch with my Sage and all of my other Archetypes as my Strengths and Resources.

I am very Excited that Spring Is Here!!!  And for me it is a time to Celebrate Joy.  I want to engage in activities that have Heart and Meaning for me.  I want to be in the NOW and ENJOY every day, every moment. 

It is also a time to bring in my Organiser for Spring Cleaning - I start this Friday.  The sooner I get my Spring Cleaning DONE, the more time I can have for being outdoors - a great reason to be motivated and focused for the big job ahead of me.

YAHOO Spring Is Here!!!

Different Parts Of Me

Today I am Grateful for my day.

When the alarm goes off this morning I feel tired and I would have been happy to stay in bed a little longer, a lot longer - I stay a little longer.  I feel my Athlete Archetype wanting to come on stage.  Last night I read about the Athlete Archetype in 'Sacred Contracts' by Caroline Myss - "This Archetype represents the ultimate expression of the strength of the human spirit as represented in the power and magnificence of the human body."  I have been Walking rather than Running - and I have enjoyed Walking - and yet I love Running.  This morning I felt Inspired to go Running and it felt wonderful to be Running.  I only ran for 8 minutes and it was slow - and yet it was just for me.  I remember the days when I would be out Training every morning, Running, Racing, Competing, Sprinting - and it was an incredible feeling when I was Racing and it was amazing crossing the finish line and winning Races.  And there may come a day when I Race again.  And yet for today and for now, I am happy to just Run.  I am glad my Athlete Archetype came through for me this morning.

When I reach the Park I am happy to be in Nature.  I love being in Nature.  In the Park I have a sense of the words "I Am Health, I Am Beauty, I See Beauty".  I could stay in Nature all day.  I love being in the Park, I love looking out at the ocean, I love watching the seagulls.

On my way to work I am delighted that I see a beautiful Kookaburra - I love Kookaburras.  The Kookaburra is sitting in our backyard, peacefully sitting on the wooden outdoor setting.  I am running a bit behind time, and yet I love Kookaburras and so I walk up and say hello - not being too close - just close enough for me and enough space for the Kookaburra not to be scared.  Seeing Kookaburras brings back wonderful memories for me of when I was a child and would be away with my Family and we would feed the Kookaburras on the balcony.  I look up Google Images and yet I cannot find a photo that would capture the picture in my mind's eye.  I love having my camera on hand to capture images and yet I very much love just being in the moment to capture the moments in my heart and mind's eye.  When I am in the Park, in Nature, spending time with the Kookaburra I feel I am in my Yin Goddess Part of me - my Goddess Part that I have affectionately called Rose.

In 'Sacred Contracts' I read about the Child of Nature Archetype - I find information on this website
- http://www.goddess-guide.com/archetypes.html
"This Goddess Archetype feels most at home in the outside bonding and communicating with the forces of nature. The Child of Nature is often emotionally very sensitive and prefers solace and the company of animals to being with people. They are often independent and physically fit... To have this particular stereotype you need more than a love of nature. Your health and well-being is affected if you are unable to spend time outside working with animals, plants and other nature spirits. Your idea of hell is likely to be working in a busy office in the centre of town."

I love being in Nature.  And when I am in Nature, I wish I could stay there all day.  When I am at work in the office, I love getting out, at every chance I get - just to be out in the fresh air, enjoy the Trees and Flowers and hear the Birds singing.

I am really enjoying getting to know the Different Parts Of Me and then I love reading about the Archetypes.

Peak Moments In Time for me involved me being in Connection with others.  I love being in Connection, enjoying Conversations with others.  Today I loved listening with interest to the stories of some of the ladies from work, I really enjoyed sharing a sacred space, just for a few minutes.  This weekend at College I have been reminded of the power of listening, attentive silence, reflection - the power of being totally present.  I feel that when I am in Connection with others and when I genuinely offer an acknowledgement from my heart, I feel that this is my Gift to Spread The Yellow.

I am happy to receive some beautiful Flowers from my Man - we have been together for 10 months today. My Man is so important to me and I am very important to me - and so I am now Consciously choosing to find the Balance.

I am happy to be in love and there is so much else going on for me.  I feel that I am overloaded with so much information and yet there is also so much simplicity - therein lies the paradox.  My Mentor and Teacher used this word "paradox" on the weekend and I feel that this word and reality resonates with me.  I am joyful and I also have a sense of sadness.  There is so much and yet it is so simple.

I feel that there are some big learning opportunities for me.  I feel that I carry a lot of heaviness on my shoulders.  I feel my Caregiver Archetype is strong and yet the Shadow of the Caregiver is that it wants to take care of everyone.  I feel that I sometimes worry about what is not within my control - and yet the opportunity for my growth is to allow others to take responsibility for their own lives and not feel that I have to worry or give advice or even place judgement or step into a Parent shadow.

All of this Self-Reflection can put myself at risk of turning into Overthinking or Analysis - and I really just want to smell the roses and be in Connection.  And yet I feel that this work is valuable and helps me be in Connection with me.

Self-Reflection offers me the opportunity to get to know the Different Parts Of Me and how they play out in my life.  Through Self-Reflection there is the opportunity for me to Consciously make Choices in my life.  I love that I have now made the choice to not put the TV on until after dinner - instead tonight I put on music and enjoyed dancing, I felt my Goddess dancing around the loungeroom and then I enjoyed creating dinner for my Man.

I listen to one of my Shania Twain CDs and I love this song - I feel like I am singing this to my Self  "Wanna Get To Know You That Good" - I also love this clip - Shania Twain is a beautiful Goddess -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3iJvLdcvbis&feature=related

As I get to know the Different Parts Of Me, I learn to love the Different Parts Of Me.  I learn to love that I have all these Strengths and Resources within me.

And I love that I Am A Coach and I love that I can help my Clients discover their Beauty, their Self.  This is my greatest desire - to help my Clients Love Self and Love Life...

I Am So Grateful

Today I had an Attitude of Gratitude.  This is the Intention I set for the day.

I walk outside and I am so Grateful for a beautiful Yellow flower that has just come into bloom.  I Am So Grateful to my Neighbour for bringing our Garden to life.

I Am So Grateful that I have a parking spot at the back of the Bookstore.  I Am So Grateful to be greeted by a beautiful Tree with red Flowers.  I just LOVE and I Am So Grateful for the Gifts of Nature.  Thank you God.

I Am So Grateful that the women at the Bookstore are so warm and friendly and welcoming to me.  

I Am So Grateful for my Coaching space, my room - I love my room.  I set up my room and I felt very Happy.  I also enjoyed the Process of collecting stones from the back garden and I enjoyed creating a Medicine Wheel with stones.

I can't wait to Welcome Clients into my Coaching room.  I enjoy a Meditation and I imagine a row of people and I am just sitting waiting for them to take the step towards me, towards Coaching.  And once people take a step I see myself walking with them - walking with them on their Journey.  I have a sense that the path they walk on is not a hurried, rushed, straight path - yet a flowing path.  I Am So Grateful that I have space to enjoy the Gifts of Meditation.

I Am So Grateful for the people I met today, some friends, some new faces - just enjoying Conversations, stories, sharing, time.

I Am So Grateful that I can put a sign out the front of the Bookstore - announcing that I Am Here Today.  I love seeing my name on the sign - that my Business is real and alive.

I Am So Grateful for the Manager at the Bookstore - taking time to offer some ideas that may help in introducing my Business.  I Am So Grateful for her idea that I can run a Talk or Group Coaching Session at the Bookstore that will be promoted through their newsletter and in the Bookstore - so that I can introduce myself and as an opportunity for Connection with Clients.  GREAT IDEA!  I love it.  We have agreed to chat next week about my ideas - so I will see what insights emerge for me during the week.  I definitely look forward to this opportunity to Spread The Yellow.   

I Am So Grateful that my Man comes to visit my Coaching room and we enjoy a Chai together - where I run into some friends and we enjoy chatting.

And I am So Grateful that I am drawn to buy 'Spiritual Business' by Kate Forster.  My friend had previously told me about this book (twice) and I have not rushed to buy the book, as I have just been enjoying my own Journey and feeling into the power of my Yin and Yang - and yet today - this book catches my eye - I read a few pages and it looks like a wonderful, perfect book for me to buy.  On the front cover it states "Creating a Business from the Heart" - yes, perfect!!!  Before writing this book, Kate Forster wrote a Blog and I love reading what she wrote about her Blog - 

"The blog started as something small and became the biggest thing in my life - my laboratory, my diary, my confessor, my mirror, my gauge and my friend.  I set myself a few rules.  They were:

1. To blog as often as possible when I had something to share

2. To be completely open, warts and all

3. Avoid discussing the blog unless I was asked

4. To allow it to exist - those who were Meant to find it, would

5. To not have any expectation about the outcome

6. To be, 'Open to everything, attached to nothing'."

I am really looking forward to reading this book.  And I Am So Grateful that I was drawn to a second hand book 'Love Of A Lifestyle' by Denise Scudds - it is just a story - it looks like a beautiful love story.  I read a chapter in my bath tonight and I love just relaxing and reading.

I Am So Grateful that I Am So Grateful.  This is a Conscious decision and I Am So Grateful that this does come naturally for me.  In 'You Can Have An Amazing Life In Just 60 Days' by Dr. John F. Demartini (I love this book), he talks about 'The Law Of Appreciation' - "You have more vitality when you have appreciation than you do at any other time, so stop, reflect, and think about what you could give thanks for.  Make it your aim to be appreciative of your life and acknowledge the amazing journey you experience."

Blank Canvas

I look at my Blank Canvas - it invites my Imagination - it represents a world of possibilities - a world of opportunities.  I CAN CREATE MY LIFE.  I am the Designer.  I have the power.

I close my eyes for a 15 minute Meditation.  I clear my mind by imagining the Blank Canvas.  I fast forward to 3 months - the Blank Canvas (in my mind's eye) very quickly turns to Yellow - the outside and the inside of the Canvas - bright, bright, Yellow.

I ask myself - What do I see?  What am I doing?  How do I feel?  I feel VERY Excited.  I feel Excited when I sit down with a Client for their first appointment.  I am SO Excited!  I am Excited that Clients are making themselves a Priority, to work on their life - so that they may LOVE THEIR LIFE.  That is why I am here - to help people who do not love their life - to help people SHINE.  It is that simple.

In my Meditation - I am Excited when someone first rings me on the phone - we talk briefly - I find out why they would like to see me and how they found out about me.  Word of mouth is spreading.  I Make A Difference.  People are recommending Clients to me.  I see a Yellow web (like a spider web), where I feel the Connection and Energy that is all around me and is spreading out.

I see myself with beams of light coming from me - everywhere I go - I Spread The Yellow. 

In the Meditation I see an image of my Coaching appointment diary - and it is full - 5 appointments for a Friday - and there is space - space to digest, reflect, relax, be centred and ready for each Client.  My diary is full - yet I find space and extra times and another room for all prospective Clients.

In my Meditation, I feel so comfortable and happy as a Coach - I AM A LIFE COACH.  I am living my Dream, I am living and loving my Vision.

I hear the words - "Do not fear, people will come" - "Be You" - "Be In Community".  The words "Be In Community" are strong.  In the Meditation I ask my Future Self what advice I can give to my Present Self ?  And I get a sense of me walking around and introducing myself to businesses in Cronulla - I feel drawn to hairdressers - that I need to just walk in and say "hello" so they know me and I may be of service to them and/ or their Clients.  I get a sense of just being in Community and known for my light.

In the Meditation I ask what people notice about me?  People notice that I am glowing.  I hear the words "I Am The Sun" and I have the image of rays of light coming from me - like my Business Logo - and then I have a knowing that I Am My Business Logo - the Yellow heart, the love, my Yin, my Yang, my Yin-Yang working together, in love, for the Greater Good, with sparks and rays of light and energy coming from me.

Wow - I loved my Meditation.  It was wonderful to sit in this Future space.  I write in my Journal.  Being in my Yin, my imagination and feeling in my heart, I feel that this place is Incredible, Powerful - much more than just sitting here and thinking about my Business.

Today is about having a Vision and Goals for my Coaching Business - without Goals I would not know the direction I am travelling - and I like to have Goals so that I can tune into my Intuition and see what will take me closer to my destination.  While at Cronulla I buy myself a card - I decide to write myself a Birthday card - my Birthday is 4 months away.  The card is to me and from me - I am writing to my Future Self - and by the time I read the card, I have a strong sense that my Vision would have come true.  I will give this card to my Man tonight so that he can give it back to me in September when my Dreams of a Successful Coaching Business will be achieved.  The Goal is Specific and Measureable - I want to be working with 5-7 Clients every week.  I love writing myself a card - just saying "Congratulations" to myself.

Now that I have a clear Goal and I have seen it in my mind's eye, plus I have felt the emotion and expressed it in writing - it is now time for ACTION - time to take Steps.  And so out I go into the Community, with a pile of my Flyers.  I decide that I will deliver 100 today.  Although I had originally planned on photocopying pages from the street directory and having a more ordered, logical, Yang approach to the Flyer delivery - I decide to just allow my Yin to run the show - to just listen for where my Intution guides me to go - and then Yang does the walking.  I had also planned to write down the streets where I deliver my Flyer - yet it is such a beautiful sunny day and I just enjoy feeling the warmth of the sun and love looking at the Flowers, Trees and Birds.  And everytime I put a Flyer in a letterbox I imagine sending love, light and Yellow to the household.  It is wonderful following my Yin's guidance - it takes off the pressure and makes for a relaxing time.  If the letterbox is filled with too many brochures, overflowing from a letterbox, my Yin senses that there is too much going on there right now, and my Yang agrees that I don't want my Flyer to get lost - so I just move to the next inviting letterbox.  I see a Kookaburra and that makes my heart sing and I enjoy seeing the Lorrikeets flying and splashing in a bird bath.

I had a lovely afternoon and just as I was on my way home a lady approached me and showed me a piece of paper with an address - she was lost and was trying to get to this unit.  English is the second language for this lady.  So I walk with her until we find her unit - we walk for about an hour, she had been given the wrong address and I also got her lost as we walked up and down trying to find her new home.  We had a nice walk in the sunshine.  I am happy that I had time to Spread The Yellow to this lady - that I can be genuine and live from my heart.  I am just so happy that I had space in my day to allow for the unexpected surprises.  Although we only enjoyed half conversations - I really enjoyed my time in Connection with this lovely lady from Ukraine.  That's one of my greatest delights - I never know who I am going to meet on my Journey

And then tonight I enjoy a Date with my Man.  I love being in love - I love holding hands with my Man.  If I was designing my life and I had a Blank Canvas in front of me - I would choose my Man and our life together at the Centre - my Man is my Now and my Future.

As I Imagine my Future - I feel that it is Bright and Happy and there is so much Sunshine and Yellow...

And even as I dream my dreams and Imagine my Future - I love the Now - Being and Enjoying the Now is  SO Very Important to me...

Bloom Where You Are Planted

In 1995 I was sent to Atlanta to live and work by my Company.  It was the year before the 1996 Atlanta Olympic Games.  I was working for the Sydney Convention and Visitors Bureau (SCVB) - and my Mission was to research how an Olympic City can maximise the exposure of the Olympic Games.  I lived and worked there for 4 months - it was an amazing time.  The reason why I was chosen to go to Atlanta was because I have always lived by and worked by the philosophy of doing the best I can - and from the moment I walked into the SCVB I was dedicated, keen, proactive and innovative - within 6 weeks I was promoted and within 2 years I found myself on a plane to Atlanta.

I loved my Mission in Atlanta.  It was an incredible experience and I showed total Commitment for my Mission.  I loved the work, I loved the people at work... I loved each day at work.  I enjoyed the excitement and the opportunity to work independently - a HUGE opportunity to Shine! 

On the weekends, I loved going to the Farmers' Market - I loved it - all the fresh produce.  I would take the train, change to get on another train and then walk about 30-40 minutes to get to the Market.  Along the way back, I often stopped to have a wander through a large antique store - and 1 day I found a great tapestry - it only cost me a few dollars - and I have had it now for 15 years and it is so valued - it says Bloom Where You Are Planted - very appropriate given that I had been selected by my Company to work in Atlanta, since I had always given my very best at work, and as a result had been offered this amazing experience.

Today I was reminded of this lesson - Bloom Where You are Planted.  I was at work, my Yang energy powered along at work, the thinker, the analyst, getting the work done - every now and then my Yin part would see colour in the paintings on the wall, seeing colour in a child's drawing on a colleagues's deak.  As usual, my Yin loved the 10 minute morning and afternoon breaks and my lunchbreak - I love getting outside everyday.  Although I work in a business park (interesting... since there are no gardens or trees) - with the front entrance on a major road with trucks speeding past - and I can't find a real park nearby - I still love to just walk around the block and I just love listening to the birds singing, and love looking at the trees and the flowers (this is the Yin part of me).  Today I loved looking at the frangipani trees - there is a beautiful Yellow frangipani tree - where I can get so close to the Flowers and smell the fragrance.  And then down the road is a beautiful pink frangipani tree - I can't get so close (since it is in the front yard of someone's home) - but it is also a beautiful sight - my Yin's delight.

After enjoying my Connection with Nature - seeing the open flowers as well as the closed flowers just waiting to Bloom - it reminds me of one of my favourite sayings - Bloom Where You Are Planted.  My Yin is energised from my walk - and my Yang powers on in the Office, with a Commitment to do my best - and when I leave work for the day - I feel great that I have done my best, and achieved great results.  I have a choice - and I choose to always give my best - to be positive and hardworking - to Bloom - to Shine!!

Part of my Project is to bring my Yin and Yang together to be creative and bring about my dreams - to help put my dreams into action.  As I am more Yin than Yang - in terms of the Myers-Briggs Typology, I am Intuitive, Feeling, Perception - I am all in the Heart - and in my creative Yin energies, I have a tendency to have clutter - a messy and disorganised desk, clutter (paperwork, bills, etc) on the kitchen table and coffee table and the corner of the spare room with boxes and bags filled with paperwork, trying hard to keep everything neat and tidy. 

So tonight, I see that I have to bring my Yang into force - I listen to my intuition (my Yin) and I am guided to clear the clutter on the coffee table and kitchen table first - to pile up all the paperwork and sort into piles and reorganise them away from the living area.  My Yin is crying out for her Yang.  So Yang gets focused and steps into action.  I have felt my shadows of Procrastination and Overwhelm very nearby, and yet this small Project did not take me long - and now I feel great - my Yin can enjoy the beauty of the yellow roses on the kitchen table and can now relax.

Now the challenge is to have my Yin and Yang working together to help me develop or rather sharpen this new skill of being better organised and stopping clutter piling up - for me, it just takes one envelope, then a few brochures, then my artwork, and I just add to the pile and it becomes a mess or clutter.  I have read it takes 21 days to develop a habit - so the challenge is to avoid clutter accumulating on the coffee table and kitchen table.  Of course I still have to tackle the desk and study - and develop systems and space to organise my paperwork - hmm... that will be my next Yin-Yang challenge.

In line with my Commitment and Mission to Spread The Yellow, my philosophy of Bloom Where You Are Planted is definitely a part of my beliefs that drive and sustain me and will serve me in living with Vision... this definitely involves learning and developing my own skills and living life as the best me...

Yahoo!! I Ran 32 minutes!!

Yahoo - Olive Leaf is working - within just 2 days of feeling less than 100%, I wake up this morning feeling a lot better.  I had set my alarm for 7am, with a plan to run.  I wake up at 6.58am, turn off my alarm (before it makes the buzzing sound), and lie there for a few minutes, visualising me running.  I feel a few obstacles coming up in my mind - yet I stay true to my Vision of Running, and enjoy the view in my mind's eye.

It was easy to get out of bed, as I was excited to get out there and run again.

I have my running clothes handy - which is great, as it means that as soon as I get up, I am quick to get dressed and I am ready to go - no excuses or time delays trying to find my running top, my singlet, socks, tights, long sleeve top (layering up for the cool weather, knowing that as soon as I've run 5-10 minutes, I will be tying my long sleeve top around my waist).

I walk down the outside staircase, the Yellow staircase - and as soon as I reach the bottom of the stairs, I am off running - leaving home at 7.43am - so I start the official minute count from 7.44am (despite my more laid back attitude around running, I am still taking this seriously and wanting to keep track of actual minutes - I probably should wear a watch, rather than using the time on my phone - anyway...).  I decide today that I will just trust my intuition, let my intuition guide me - so I feel guided to run up the street (rather than down the street which is the usual direction of my run).  And I am happy to see a small light brown bunny in a house across the road - so cute - a great surprise on Easter Monday.

I am so happy running - so happy!  I get into the rhythm and just relax into a comfortable pace.  I feel my intuition guiding me to run across the road, up and down the streets - each time I come to a cross road, I just ask my body - where should I go now - and I feel guided to choose the way forward.  It's nice just being in the flow, not actually having the whole run planned out, or knowing the exact way - it is making the journey more interesting - and less pressured. 

I find myself guided in and out of different streets, enjoying the beautiful Trees and Flowers that line the roads.

I am then delighted to see a lady on her balcony (in a Yellow t-shirt) so happy and smiley - two magpies fly on her balcony and she happily feeds them.  I have mixed emotions about feeding wild birds - mainly because I feel that it may make them dependent on being fed from humans, rather than naturally sourcing their own food - however, I do love birds and I do have fond memories of feeding kookaburras on the baclony of a holiday house when I was a young girl (and now just love kookaburras) and seeing a bird lover in action is just beautiful.  Especially, in this moment, where I am accustomed to seeing rosellas or cockatoos or kookaburras on balconies- yet here is this happy woman, happily feeding magpies (who I have always associated as scary after being swooped a few times and once hit on the head by a magpie when running).  And what I loved was when she happily sung out to me - "Aren't they just gorgeous?"- I smiled and agreed - loving that she had seen the beauty in these birds - and in that moment, she was shining, she was alive with beauty.

I kept running - feeling energised.  That's what I love about running outside - there are so many sights to inspire and delight - and give me energy. 

And then, just as I was feeling the glow of happiness, I found myself drawn up the street of where someone from my past 'Used To' live - I 'Used To' love him.  I wasn't sure why I had been drawn up this street - there was a slight incline up the street, so I climbed up the hill, knowing that the apartment was at the end of the road.  I am lost in thought - yet grateful when a fellow runner says a bright, happy Spread The Yellow hello - which takes me out of my overthinking.  I run past the apartment, and I was pleasantly surprised that I felt no sadness or attachment, or emotion.  Finally... finally... I feel free.  I had been devastated when he chose someone else to love, I so desperately wanted him to choose me.  I loved him deeply.  But the love was one-sided, and I felt such deep sorrow and pain - I kept wishing he would see me, spend more time with me, open his heart to me - "if only"...  And yet, I can now see that my life would have been so different had he chosen me.  I can now see that our paths had crossed for a brief moment in time, all the hurt and pain had helped me on my journey - and I can now send them love and light.  And best of all, after all the pain and heartbreak, and tears and aloneness and loneliness, I can now rejoice in feeling love.  Feeling love that is now reciprocated - in loving and feeling loved, I have found a love greater than I could imagine - I am happy, I have found peace, I love the sense of being home with another.

So with all those feelings and thoughts I find myself running along the beach, happy, free.  I am also blessed to enjoy the beautiful Yellow daisies that are plentiful along the side of the concrete path.  I just love daisies - they are so plentiful and beautiful - yet it is easy to be walking, to be busily walking in conversation and thought, and not notice the beauty of the daisy.  Daisy comes from "day's eye" as the flower is only open during the day and closes up at night.  I love that about daisies - I love that they rest at night - and love that the daisies open and blossom with the sun.

I look up tonight the meaning of 'daisy' on Google - the flower symbolism associated with the daisy is purity, innocence, loyal love, beauty, patience and simplicity.

So back to my run... I am feeling inspired, uplifted - after feeling the energy from this Wall of Yellow flowers.  All this time I have not looked at the time on my phone - I am not sure how long I have been running - that's what I love about being in the flow, and being in the moment, and doing what you love - losing consciousness of the sense of time.  I feel inspired to check the time, to take a moment of celebration for how far I have travelled, how long I have been running - and to also see how long I have been running and how close I am to my Goal of beating 22 minutes (the time of my last run - where my Goal is to progressively improve and add minutes on each time).  I am so surprised when it is 8.17am - very surprised that I have been running for 23 minutes - I can't believe I have just reached my Goal, so easily - interesting that I trusted my 'gut' to check the time at that exact time...

I feel inspired to keep running, and feel a pull to run up the stairs - great - I was enjoying the coast along the straight, flat path - so I power up the stairs, 10, 20, 30 maybe 40 stairs - yes, feel great!!! 

I decide to be focused this second half of the run - I select a destination - I will run along the beach, and the finish line will be the drink bubbler at the end of the park - so I stay focused and run, run, run - then as I am getting close to the finish line, maybe 100 metres to go, I pick up the pace and start to sprint, imagining myself being in the Olympics, visualising my Dad (who always loved coming to watch me run) being at the finish line - so I sprint and I give it my all, and I reach the destination - out of breathe, happy - I check my phone time -Yahoo!! I Ran 32 minutes!!

I feel fantastic that I have run - I just love running.  I walk home, happy, stopping to talk to some friends, getting inspired by looking at logos on business signs - checking in for some insights for my own business.  I walk home, smiling - and I am feeling so inspired.  I am so inspired, and so energetic - that I am successful in kicking other Goals that are important to me - my College assignment and a good portion of the pre-reading for my Course next week. 

Running definitely makes a difference in my life... I am so grateful that I can run...